things that are not my problem:

- others' repression

- others' responsibilities

- others' inability to act

- others' relationship disputes

- others' problems

things that are my problem:

- these three upcoming exams i'm gonna fail

i just wrote some BULLSHIT on that stat exam

i love being a fly on the wall

wdym there's a locked stash of cash in the assistant principal's office behind a wooden door

wdym someone had one job and ended up putting a cake in the freezer

wdym you're having a barbeque party

 i don't gaf anymore i'm this close to quitting

i hate being micromanaged i hate having my vision stifled i hate being told i should understand when the situation is bullshit

i hate this fucking theater bullshit bruh

have fun doing this next year without me 💀💀

queer discourse who would've guessed

i hate that my identity of

east asian (feminized, fetishized, sexualized based on race)

chronically ill / physically less able

transmasculine gender-fluctuating

eldest daughter (forced into familial responsibility from a young age, including typically "masculine" roles)

from a traditional family (being reprimanded/punished for not confirming into a narrow idea of what a girl should be)

who

is not out irl, does not pass, and will probably be unable to transition within the next decade

has a uterus, ovaries, and vagina

experienced grooming and sexual assault (some from women)

constantly deals with medical misogyny 

is boiled down to

"you can't talk about your struggles you're a MAN you're misogynistic"

ensquare events lineup

good enough #1 perfect imperfections

enstars secret santa 2025

spring festival 2026 (ends 2/17, late march if counting prod/shipping)

then what?

i want to launch good enough #2 (purposefully bad art/fic) in early march

and i've been planning the marine rescue zine since forever but i wanna wait until the other ocean charity one wraps up POs

i am officially only failing exploring childhood

i lied i also have a 0% in research

reelsmaxxing artfight edition

- stats recap

- speedpaints/progress vids

- editing art to silly audios

- showcases of specific kinds of attacks (headshots, crafts, etc)

- doodling my sona as anecdotes of what happened during the event (like having to draw with one hand after surgery) 

2025 artfight stats because i'm a nerd:

attacks: 32 (original goal of 15)

characters drawn: 66

fullbody x 23
halfbody x 10
head/bust shot x 16
simple-shaped x 17

most effort: felt ones

my favorite: lesbian

my mom's favorite: sylvie

medium:

16/32 digital art
9/32 traditional art
8/32 crafts

characters i drew more than once:

- yingzi

- vanilla cat

- ponysona

my own ocs that i drew:

- liang

- techasona

- cypress

favorite attack title/description: legally distinct red hood

revenge chains with:

- dreamkiller4567

- amarettosis

- notaozora

- TenticalKhoshekh