queer discourse who would've guessed

i hate that my identity of

east asian (feminized, fetishized, sexualized based on race)

chronically ill / physically less able

transmasculine gender-fluctuating

eldest daughter (forced into familial responsibility from a young age, including typically "masculine" roles)

from a traditional family (being reprimanded/punished for not confirming into a narrow idea of what a girl should be)

who

is not out irl, does not pass, and will probably be unable to transition within the next decade

has a uterus, ovaries, and vagina

experienced grooming and sexual assault (some from women)

constantly deals with medical misogyny 

is boiled down to

"you can't talk about your struggles you're a MAN you're misogynistic"